Day 62 - Does a bad weekend negate a good week?

So I've been pretty proud of myself this week, food and exercise wise. I got all my exercise goals in for the week, and I stayed in or below my calorie range for food! All week! So I'd say that's a pretty huge accomplishment.

Now the problem - I went all hog crazy this weekend. Friday in one of my classes we had a back to elementary school days valentines party, complete with pizza, cookies, cupcakes, and chips and dips. And yes, I ate all of that, and not in moderation :( Saturday was my cousins birthday party, and again there was pizza, chips and dip, and cake, and yes I went all crazy again.

Today I decided, however, that it's a new day. So I can't let it drag me down. Because if I did, then what would that do? It wouldn't make me lose weight any faster, or in a bigger amount. So I just have to move on past the bad points, and focus on the good. And that's exactly what I'm going to do. My new motto is to look at life sunnyside up. So I would like to say that 5 good days totally kick 2 bad days rear. And that's what I'm gonna keep thinking all day today (:

I hope you all start looking at life sunnyside up like me!

Day 58 - Pigs? In the sky?

Pigs must be falling from the sky because....

I BOUGHT A FREAKIN' SCALE!!!!

And it was a total God thing too. I was browsing for coupons on Sunday before I went to the grocery store, and I found a coupon for $5.00 off a Conair scale! So I was like YAYY! And then I went to Target, where the scales were 10% off, and I got my digital scale for $17. AAAAAMAZZZINGGGGG (:

Now, here's where the sad news comes in. I got on the scale yesterday morning, and the numbers were there. And they were numbers that were oh so familiar. The number on the scale was 200.0 lbs. 200 lbs even. I'm back to where I started. But the crazy thing is, I wasn't disappointed: I was relieved! I didn't gain! Well, I did from my 198. But that inspired me to work so much harder this week. And well I already started working hard on Sunday, but I mean my food and exercise have been so good this week! And I'm just overwhelmingly happy about it! God has so much in store for me and my body, and I can't wait to see it :)

Day 54 - Lunch sucked!

Okay so I'd like to say that I am doing pretty dang good on food and everything. And my exercise has been pretty fantastic, so I'd like to give myself props for that. Unfortunately, I do not think that it negates the awful lunch I had today. Now don't get me wrong, lunch tasted preeeeettyyyy dang good. It was actually super super good. But was it good FOR me? Absolutely not.

Let me start by saying that Chili's is not a good place for someone who is looking for a low cal meal. Granted that restaraunts in general really aren't great places, some have their perks and their golden menu items that have all the allure and taste of something tantalizing, without all the fat and calories. Unfortunately for me, (and my waistline), Chili's has a very very very small food selection in that good for you. Don't get me wrong, they have the guiltless grill menu options, that all sounded pretty good. And whenever my friend suggested that we go last night for lunch today, I said sure, and did my research! I got online and looked up their nutritional values and planned my meal to a t. It was going to be great! But today, even though I fully prepped myself for this meal, I still got my bovine on and ate like a cow. Well technically. I mean, I will give myself props that I didn't eat every single thing in sight, and I wasn't famished so that's good. But I did chose the triple dipper  (my reasoning? It's smaller portions!) and I ate really slowly and carefully, so that's a plus. But my food choice ended up totaling to around 1700 calories for lunch. I'm supposed to eat 200 calories LESS than that in a DAY! A day!! So that pretty much sucked. But I'm not going to let it get me down. The smart thing would be to skip dinner completely (and believe me, I feasted so I'm sure that I won't want anything. But skipping meals isn't healthy so most likely I'm going to have a 200 calorie or less dinner. And that's okay. I mean, At least I didn't do this for breakfast, lunch, AND dinner. And people do! And with snacks in between! That's crazy.

So lesson learned, when you make a plan actually stick to it! Then you won't have to boo hoo on your blog later (:

Day 51 - Cardio and Healing

So I'm out of the hospital! Yay!! And the good news is I just have to go back in the next two days and get treatments by IV. So in my personal oppinion, that's FABULOUS news :)

And to celebrate my breaking out of the hospital, I went to Target and got some fabulous things :) I got 2 new sports bras, and they were on CLEARANCE for $3.47 each. WOOOOHOOO! And then I got Julianne Hough's Cardio Ballroom DVD that I've been lusting after for a good month. I also got some 100 calorie right bite things that were on sale, and it just so happened I had a COUPON in my purse for them! That was God right there! I also got some granola bars for $0.89 a box! Wooo! If I were you, I'd hit Target up - they are having some fabulous sales! Oh and my Cardio Ballroom DVD was only $10 and it came with a free one year subscription to Fitness magazine. It was great! So I rushed home, got my dinner, and went straight to my dvd. Now, please remember I just got out of the hospital, so my energy level isn't as great as it normally is, but I did 15 minutes of Julianne. It was awesome! I'm obviously gonna have to practice, but it was a blast :) I'm so glad I invested in this!

I think I'm finally getting my sunshine after all this time in the dark :)

Day 49 - Dark but Light

Today, I'm not at school. I'm also not at home. Today I'm in the hospital.

Before you freak out, it's nothing too bad. I'm a frequent hospital visitor, so it's nothing new. But I do have certain medical issues that keep me up here from time to time.

So that being said, back to your normally scheduled blog :)

Last night was really rough, and I couldn't sleep. And it made me really frustrated. So this morning, at the crack of dawn, they took me out of my not-so-comfortable hospital bed, and brought me downstairs for some testing. While I was laying in one of the beds for testing, I was thinking about losing weight for prom, and how behind I am. It made me disappointed and uspet again, but then I realized that the more I keep whining about it, and crying, and being upset, the more I'm not going to do anything. So I decided there, that these are the things that I AM going to do:

• Eat a healthy breakfast, and a healthy lunch. Then look at how I did for b-fast and lunch to see what I can do for dinner.
• Exercise, and do it thoroughly. It's not about quantity, but quality. But still stick to a semi-planned routine.
• Just live life to the fullest, and don't get down about the failures. Rejoice in the triumphs.

So those are my goals. Simple. Sweet. To the point. And I'm ready to start living them.

Day 47 - In a slump and need a pump

This week has been hell. School has been hectic and I'm behind, and I'm having a lot of health issues. My food was pretty average if not unhealthy, and I only did about 30 minutes of walking on one day, and that was Friday.

This blows big time!

I don't know why I'm in such a rut. I mean, you shouldn't be in a rut when you start, right? That's not good AT ALL. I don't want to quit. I CANNOT QUIT. I just hate it. I have no way of measuring progress because I don't have a scale yet, and I just feel blah. Yesterday I went to Academy to try to jump start my life again. I bought 2 pairs of work out shorts and a pedometer, but I was so sick today, I couldn't even do anything :( I'm just tired of being in this slump.Like I can't get out and I just want to so bad. But it's not happening :(

Why isn't it happening? What can I do? :(

Day 44 - Sparking

As stated in my post from yesterday, today was supposed to be the day that I got back on track. Sadly, it wasn't. I didn't exercise, I did overeat (and I seriously do not know why!), and I overall did about 3 productive things. It's disheartening, but I'm starting to find that the more and more I whine about the bad things, and the things that don't go well, and the gains, and the no scale, and all of that, the more and more I'm getting angry with myself. I mean, this is bull-loney! There are people in Haiti with no water, no family members, and really no hope, and I'm sitting here all in a tizzy about a scale. No. That's not okay. I am EXTREMELY blessed. God gives me so much, and I still sit here all ehh about it, like I'm not satisfied or full. That's not okay.

So tonight, as I was eating a vegetarian quesadilla (it's my own recipe I concocted, and it's super delicious :]) (ohh and no, I'm not a vegetarian, but cutting meat usually cuts calories for me lol) I was thinking about getting back on track and so here's the first thing I did.

I made a sparkpage! Now you can follow my fitness and eating and blah blah blah at this link:
http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage.asp?id=HIGHWAY200TO160

Happy trails guys! I hope yall are havin a good week :)