Day 54 - Lunch sucked!

Okay so I'd like to say that I am doing pretty dang good on food and everything. And my exercise has been pretty fantastic, so I'd like to give myself props for that. Unfortunately, I do not think that it negates the awful lunch I had today. Now don't get me wrong, lunch tasted preeeeettyyyy dang good. It was actually super super good. But was it good FOR me? Absolutely not.

Let me start by saying that Chili's is not a good place for someone who is looking for a low cal meal. Granted that restaraunts in general really aren't great places, some have their perks and their golden menu items that have all the allure and taste of something tantalizing, without all the fat and calories. Unfortunately for me, (and my waistline), Chili's has a very very very small food selection in that good for you. Don't get me wrong, they have the guiltless grill menu options, that all sounded pretty good. And whenever my friend suggested that we go last night for lunch today, I said sure, and did my research! I got online and looked up their nutritional values and planned my meal to a t. It was going to be great! But today, even though I fully prepped myself for this meal, I still got my bovine on and ate like a cow. Well technically. I mean, I will give myself props that I didn't eat every single thing in sight, and I wasn't famished so that's good. But I did chose the triple dipper  (my reasoning? It's smaller portions!) and I ate really slowly and carefully, so that's a plus. But my food choice ended up totaling to around 1700 calories for lunch. I'm supposed to eat 200 calories LESS than that in a DAY! A day!! So that pretty much sucked. But I'm not going to let it get me down. The smart thing would be to skip dinner completely (and believe me, I feasted so I'm sure that I won't want anything. But skipping meals isn't healthy so most likely I'm going to have a 200 calorie or less dinner. And that's okay. I mean, At least I didn't do this for breakfast, lunch, AND dinner. And people do! And with snacks in between! That's crazy.

So lesson learned, when you make a plan actually stick to it! Then you won't have to boo hoo on your blog later (:

Day 51 - Cardio and Healing

So I'm out of the hospital! Yay!! And the good news is I just have to go back in the next two days and get treatments by IV. So in my personal oppinion, that's FABULOUS news :)

And to celebrate my breaking out of the hospital, I went to Target and got some fabulous things :) I got 2 new sports bras, and they were on CLEARANCE for $3.47 each. WOOOOHOOO! And then I got Julianne Hough's Cardio Ballroom DVD that I've been lusting after for a good month. I also got some 100 calorie right bite things that were on sale, and it just so happened I had a COUPON in my purse for them! That was God right there! I also got some granola bars for $0.89 a box! Wooo! If I were you, I'd hit Target up - they are having some fabulous sales! Oh and my Cardio Ballroom DVD was only $10 and it came with a free one year subscription to Fitness magazine. It was great! So I rushed home, got my dinner, and went straight to my dvd. Now, please remember I just got out of the hospital, so my energy level isn't as great as it normally is, but I did 15 minutes of Julianne. It was awesome! I'm obviously gonna have to practice, but it was a blast :) I'm so glad I invested in this!

I think I'm finally getting my sunshine after all this time in the dark :)

Day 49 - Dark but Light

Today, I'm not at school. I'm also not at home. Today I'm in the hospital.

Before you freak out, it's nothing too bad. I'm a frequent hospital visitor, so it's nothing new. But I do have certain medical issues that keep me up here from time to time.

So that being said, back to your normally scheduled blog :)

Last night was really rough, and I couldn't sleep. And it made me really frustrated. So this morning, at the crack of dawn, they took me out of my not-so-comfortable hospital bed, and brought me downstairs for some testing. While I was laying in one of the beds for testing, I was thinking about losing weight for prom, and how behind I am. It made me disappointed and uspet again, but then I realized that the more I keep whining about it, and crying, and being upset, the more I'm not going to do anything. So I decided there, that these are the things that I AM going to do:

• Eat a healthy breakfast, and a healthy lunch. Then look at how I did for b-fast and lunch to see what I can do for dinner.
• Exercise, and do it thoroughly. It's not about quantity, but quality. But still stick to a semi-planned routine.
• Just live life to the fullest, and don't get down about the failures. Rejoice in the triumphs.

So those are my goals. Simple. Sweet. To the point. And I'm ready to start living them.

Day 47 - In a slump and need a pump

This week has been hell. School has been hectic and I'm behind, and I'm having a lot of health issues. My food was pretty average if not unhealthy, and I only did about 30 minutes of walking on one day, and that was Friday.

This blows big time!

I don't know why I'm in such a rut. I mean, you shouldn't be in a rut when you start, right? That's not good AT ALL. I don't want to quit. I CANNOT QUIT. I just hate it. I have no way of measuring progress because I don't have a scale yet, and I just feel blah. Yesterday I went to Academy to try to jump start my life again. I bought 2 pairs of work out shorts and a pedometer, but I was so sick today, I couldn't even do anything :( I'm just tired of being in this slump.Like I can't get out and I just want to so bad. But it's not happening :(

Why isn't it happening? What can I do? :(

Day 44 - Sparking

As stated in my post from yesterday, today was supposed to be the day that I got back on track. Sadly, it wasn't. I didn't exercise, I did overeat (and I seriously do not know why!), and I overall did about 3 productive things. It's disheartening, but I'm starting to find that the more and more I whine about the bad things, and the things that don't go well, and the gains, and the no scale, and all of that, the more and more I'm getting angry with myself. I mean, this is bull-loney! There are people in Haiti with no water, no family members, and really no hope, and I'm sitting here all in a tizzy about a scale. No. That's not okay. I am EXTREMELY blessed. God gives me so much, and I still sit here all ehh about it, like I'm not satisfied or full. That's not okay.

So tonight, as I was eating a vegetarian quesadilla (it's my own recipe I concocted, and it's super delicious :]) (ohh and no, I'm not a vegetarian, but cutting meat usually cuts calories for me lol) I was thinking about getting back on track and so here's the first thing I did.

I made a sparkpage! Now you can follow my fitness and eating and blah blah blah at this link:
http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage.asp?id=HIGHWAY200TO160

Happy trails guys! I hope yall are havin a good week :)

Day 43 - Back on Track

Hey guys! I am finally back home, and feelin' good! I can honestly say I did pretty okay with my food this weekend. Not anything special, but you know, I'm just glad I didn't hoarde things in my mouth. I am aiming towards a really good week of exercise and eating next week. I have to re-evaluate my goals, and get back on track. I need to remember what I'm doing this for, and why I'm doing it. This weekend I went to the town of my future college with a fellow friend who will also be attending in the fall. Now my friend is just a drop dead gorgeous girl: very tall, very lean, blonde hair, perfect tan. Just a very pretty girl. And I'm well.. just an average looking, pleasantly plump girl. Well going around campus, and just talking to people, my friend got lots of looks, and lots of attention from the males of the school. Me? Not so much. And that's okay, but you know, I want to get to where I'm comfortable, and when I step out I KNOW that I look good. So that's what I'm aiming for.

For the short term, which is prom, I have a little less than 4 months to get down to my goal weight.
But for the long run, I have 7 months to get to the healthy lifestyle, and the healthy body that I want for the rest of my life. I wanna get to where I have the best years of my life at college - not looking back at pictures thinking "Hm? What might of been?" I did that too much in high school. I have to stop doing it. I won't do it anymore.

Day 42 - Busy bee, busy me

Sooooo I haven't posted in the past couple of days because I've been obnoxiously busy with everything!! And I'm still not even at home or in town, so I have to make this one short (:

Quick updates from the past couple of days:

1. the big one: I GOT ACCEPTED TO MY FIRST CHOICE COLLEGE ON THURSDAYYYYY!!! (:
it was probably the happiest moment of my life!

2. My scale is still broken, & I still have yet to purchase a new one. :( this will be resolved soon though!

3. I stepped on my friends old old old scale and it said I lost a pound, and I'm at 196! But I want to make sure with my new scale.

That's about it! I hope you all have a great weekend, & I'll see you when I get home!


- Posted from my iPhone

Day 37 - Blue

So I've been kind of in a hump the past week. I haven't really exercised, or made good food choices. And I have no idea where I'm at, because I'm still lacking a scale. I think tomorrow I'm just gonna go try to find one in my price range, but that's slightly disappointing for a teenager with no job lol. So when you put everything together, it kind of puts me in a slightly blue mood. I really need to get back on track. Hopefully I do soon. I really hope I do soon.

:(

Day 31 - Did you know I weigh 359 pounds?

Okay so before you choke on your gum, I would like to explain that I in no shape or form weigh 359 pounds. Hahaha. But that's what my scale told me when I hopped on it on Monday, which is weigh in day.

At first I was slightly confused. I got off and then got back on. When I tried the second time I weighed 84.5 pounds. A welcome weight (haha I'm kidding), but not my weight. At this I realized my scale was broken. I went online and found out how to recalibrate it, when I looked up the error message that finally came up, but it was no use. I recalibrated it several times, and, nothing. And as I realized my scale was broken, I also realized that my heart was broken too. I don't have the receipt, or even packaging of the scale, so returning it is not really an option. I'll have to go buy another one. And that was a $30 scale, and my mom isn't too thrilled of the idea of buying another scale, as this is about the 3rd broken scale we've had. The digital scales are great, but they are very sensitive, and hard to fix. I'm thinking about researching other brands or what ever and going out and getting one when I finally accept that I have to (this will most likely be by Sunday, as I do not want to miss two weigh in's). But anyway, I went back to school on Tuesday (grudgingly - might I add) and found out that I am now in boy's P.E. for my final semester of high school. I think this might just be a funny way that destiny is telling me to workout. Blah, blah, I've been going to the gym and doing well. And I'm really proud of myself for continuing to go out there in the midst of new year's resolution workouts. That's a reward in itself!

So with that, I leave you without a road sign number change :/ but with  the information of why I haven't told you all my new weight, and a somewhat funny story about my luck with scales.

I hope you all have a great rest of the evening :)

Day 28 - Has it been four weeks?

So today marks my four week mark! Yay! It really has flown - I mean it seems like yesterday since I've started this blog. So it's a pretty big thing.

Today was uneventful - I had to go all the way to the apple store 30 minutes from my house so they could help me with some problems I had with my iphone. I was 7 (literally 7) minutes late to my scheduled appointment of 12:30, so I had to reschedule to 1:40. So normally this would be okay, and I would go browse around the mall looking at stuff and what not, but there was a problem - I was with my dad. And today was game day. And he had to work tonight. So I had a new mission to keep dad cool and not frustrated with an already frustrating situation. The mission was to resolve the problem and get home before 3:15 to watch the Cowboys (who may I say, won tonight, 24-0 (: ). We went and had lunch, and I got to catch up with him, which I normally never get to do because we're always so busy. Then I finally got to go to my appointment, get my phone fixed (I think) and headed home, pulling in the driveway at 2:48. So mission accomplished.

Earlier after the game ended, I browsed the 5,000 blogs I follow, and was looking at a lot of everyone's posts. And mostly everyone I follow has had a new years resolution blog. Now I am someone who HATES resolutions, mostly because I never follow mine. I can tell you all day that I'm gonna clean out my room, study more, eat out less, yada yada yada, but in about a month and a half I will not even remember what I resolved to, or that I even had a resolution. So I decided I'm not going to have a resolution this year. I am going to have a goal list, and a reward list. And this is how I've compiled it:

The 2010 Goals and Rewards List

Goals:

• Leave the size 14 jeans behind.
• Embrace the positives in everything.
• Try something new at least once a month.
• Get a steady workout regimen together and actually follow it.

And Rewards:

• Lose 15 pounds (from original 200) and get a cute outfit from Nordstroms :)
• Smile at the fact that I'm losing weight!
• Be confident in my cut clothes.

So maybe they seem lame or stupid or whatever, but I like them. And maybe I'll revise them and maybe I won't, But I know that I will obtain them. And I'm glad that you'll all be here to watch me :)

Day 27 - Oh yes, I went to the gym.

Happy New Year everyone! I hope that everyone is having a great start to 2010! I can't believe it's here. It's HERE! This is the year that I graduate high school!!!! Aaaaaahhhh!!!

Haha, okay on to business. This week I made a huge step that I swore I wouldn't do - I went to the gym. For the longest time I refused to go to the gym in the month of January, because it's everyone's new years resolution to lose 10 lbs, and get in the gym. So it's always packed with people skinny as a bone, and they stare at you like "woah big girl, I guess you have a new year's resolution to lose a bunch!" and it'll make you really self-conscious. But at the same time it pisses me off. Because I'm like "who are you?!You've NEVER been here. I've been here a while." Hahahah. I guess it's a humourous situation, but it still grinds my gears.

But yes, I finally decided to go to the gym this week, as everyone made their resolutions. So my bestie and I went Thursday morning, and this lovely Saturday morning. And I'd like to say it was AWESOME! Thursday I biked 10 miles. (Oh yes, 10.) Today I did the weight loss program on the bike and biked 4.5 and walked 1.0 miles on the treadmill, with strength training with the weights on the side. It was AWESOME! I really really really feel confident in having a new roadsign on Monday! Yeaaaahh!!

I hope you all have great resolutions, and that you also have a great weekend :)