Day 43 - Back on Track

Hey guys! I am finally back home, and feelin' good! I can honestly say I did pretty okay with my food this weekend. Not anything special, but you know, I'm just glad I didn't hoarde things in my mouth. I am aiming towards a really good week of exercise and eating next week. I have to re-evaluate my goals, and get back on track. I need to remember what I'm doing this for, and why I'm doing it. This weekend I went to the town of my future college with a fellow friend who will also be attending in the fall. Now my friend is just a drop dead gorgeous girl: very tall, very lean, blonde hair, perfect tan. Just a very pretty girl. And I'm well.. just an average looking, pleasantly plump girl. Well going around campus, and just talking to people, my friend got lots of looks, and lots of attention from the males of the school. Me? Not so much. And that's okay, but you know, I want to get to where I'm comfortable, and when I step out I KNOW that I look good. So that's what I'm aiming for.

For the short term, which is prom, I have a little less than 4 months to get down to my goal weight.
But for the long run, I have 7 months to get to the healthy lifestyle, and the healthy body that I want for the rest of my life. I wanna get to where I have the best years of my life at college - not looking back at pictures thinking "Hm? What might of been?" I did that too much in high school. I have to stop doing it. I won't do it anymore.

Day 42 - Busy bee, busy me

Sooooo I haven't posted in the past couple of days because I've been obnoxiously busy with everything!! And I'm still not even at home or in town, so I have to make this one short (:

Quick updates from the past couple of days:

1. the big one: I GOT ACCEPTED TO MY FIRST CHOICE COLLEGE ON THURSDAYYYYY!!! (:
it was probably the happiest moment of my life!

2. My scale is still broken, & I still have yet to purchase a new one. :( this will be resolved soon though!

3. I stepped on my friends old old old scale and it said I lost a pound, and I'm at 196! But I want to make sure with my new scale.

That's about it! I hope you all have a great weekend, & I'll see you when I get home!


- Posted from my iPhone

Day 37 - Blue

So I've been kind of in a hump the past week. I haven't really exercised, or made good food choices. And I have no idea where I'm at, because I'm still lacking a scale. I think tomorrow I'm just gonna go try to find one in my price range, but that's slightly disappointing for a teenager with no job lol. So when you put everything together, it kind of puts me in a slightly blue mood. I really need to get back on track. Hopefully I do soon. I really hope I do soon.

:(

Day 31 - Did you know I weigh 359 pounds?

Okay so before you choke on your gum, I would like to explain that I in no shape or form weigh 359 pounds. Hahaha. But that's what my scale told me when I hopped on it on Monday, which is weigh in day.

At first I was slightly confused. I got off and then got back on. When I tried the second time I weighed 84.5 pounds. A welcome weight (haha I'm kidding), but not my weight. At this I realized my scale was broken. I went online and found out how to recalibrate it, when I looked up the error message that finally came up, but it was no use. I recalibrated it several times, and, nothing. And as I realized my scale was broken, I also realized that my heart was broken too. I don't have the receipt, or even packaging of the scale, so returning it is not really an option. I'll have to go buy another one. And that was a $30 scale, and my mom isn't too thrilled of the idea of buying another scale, as this is about the 3rd broken scale we've had. The digital scales are great, but they are very sensitive, and hard to fix. I'm thinking about researching other brands or what ever and going out and getting one when I finally accept that I have to (this will most likely be by Sunday, as I do not want to miss two weigh in's). But anyway, I went back to school on Tuesday (grudgingly - might I add) and found out that I am now in boy's P.E. for my final semester of high school. I think this might just be a funny way that destiny is telling me to workout. Blah, blah, I've been going to the gym and doing well. And I'm really proud of myself for continuing to go out there in the midst of new year's resolution workouts. That's a reward in itself!

So with that, I leave you without a road sign number change :/ but with  the information of why I haven't told you all my new weight, and a somewhat funny story about my luck with scales.

I hope you all have a great rest of the evening :)

Day 28 - Has it been four weeks?

So today marks my four week mark! Yay! It really has flown - I mean it seems like yesterday since I've started this blog. So it's a pretty big thing.

Today was uneventful - I had to go all the way to the apple store 30 minutes from my house so they could help me with some problems I had with my iphone. I was 7 (literally 7) minutes late to my scheduled appointment of 12:30, so I had to reschedule to 1:40. So normally this would be okay, and I would go browse around the mall looking at stuff and what not, but there was a problem - I was with my dad. And today was game day. And he had to work tonight. So I had a new mission to keep dad cool and not frustrated with an already frustrating situation. The mission was to resolve the problem and get home before 3:15 to watch the Cowboys (who may I say, won tonight, 24-0 (: ). We went and had lunch, and I got to catch up with him, which I normally never get to do because we're always so busy. Then I finally got to go to my appointment, get my phone fixed (I think) and headed home, pulling in the driveway at 2:48. So mission accomplished.

Earlier after the game ended, I browsed the 5,000 blogs I follow, and was looking at a lot of everyone's posts. And mostly everyone I follow has had a new years resolution blog. Now I am someone who HATES resolutions, mostly because I never follow mine. I can tell you all day that I'm gonna clean out my room, study more, eat out less, yada yada yada, but in about a month and a half I will not even remember what I resolved to, or that I even had a resolution. So I decided I'm not going to have a resolution this year. I am going to have a goal list, and a reward list. And this is how I've compiled it:

The 2010 Goals and Rewards List

Goals:

• Leave the size 14 jeans behind.
• Embrace the positives in everything.
• Try something new at least once a month.
• Get a steady workout regimen together and actually follow it.

And Rewards:

• Lose 15 pounds (from original 200) and get a cute outfit from Nordstroms :)
• Smile at the fact that I'm losing weight!
• Be confident in my cut clothes.

So maybe they seem lame or stupid or whatever, but I like them. And maybe I'll revise them and maybe I won't, But I know that I will obtain them. And I'm glad that you'll all be here to watch me :)

Day 27 - Oh yes, I went to the gym.

Happy New Year everyone! I hope that everyone is having a great start to 2010! I can't believe it's here. It's HERE! This is the year that I graduate high school!!!! Aaaaaahhhh!!!

Haha, okay on to business. This week I made a huge step that I swore I wouldn't do - I went to the gym. For the longest time I refused to go to the gym in the month of January, because it's everyone's new years resolution to lose 10 lbs, and get in the gym. So it's always packed with people skinny as a bone, and they stare at you like "woah big girl, I guess you have a new year's resolution to lose a bunch!" and it'll make you really self-conscious. But at the same time it pisses me off. Because I'm like "who are you?!You've NEVER been here. I've been here a while." Hahahah. I guess it's a humourous situation, but it still grinds my gears.

But yes, I finally decided to go to the gym this week, as everyone made their resolutions. So my bestie and I went Thursday morning, and this lovely Saturday morning. And I'd like to say it was AWESOME! Thursday I biked 10 miles. (Oh yes, 10.) Today I did the weight loss program on the bike and biked 4.5 and walked 1.0 miles on the treadmill, with strength training with the weights on the side. It was AWESOME! I really really really feel confident in having a new roadsign on Monday! Yeaaaahh!!

I hope you all have great resolutions, and that you also have a great weekend :)

Day 23 (Not a repeat, I swear) - The dress.

Okay, so normally I only post once a day, but if you've been keeping tabs on my blog, you'll notice it's pretty sporadic. Some days I post every single day, and then I'll skip like 3. It just depends on the time that I have. But never have I posted two posts in one day....until now. (BUM BUM BUM!)

Lol, but on a serious note, I felt the need to share a little anecdote with you from my girl's night out tonight. Today I did my exercising, and was very very good at breakfast and lunch so I could splurge just a super tiny bit at dinner with two of my good friends. So we went, and I got all dressed up, like super glamorous (and may I say, I really looked good). Well anyhoo, on the way home, we were talking about prom, beach houses, dates, yada yada yada, and then BAM. The question is proposed: Do you have your dress?

So I'm kinda like...ugh. Because really and truthfully, no one really knows about my lifestyle change. Like my mom does, and one of my best friends who I walk with does. That's pretty much it. And I know that seems crazy and I should be screaming to the people that I love the most that I'm losing weight, but I don't want to put myself in that boat. Oh sure, people have asked, but I just kinda mumble or change the subject or say no politely. I just don't want to. And this is probably why: When you're a young, overweight high school girl, and you tell people you're exercising and wanting to lose weight - they watch you. And there's always gonna be the people (and what cracks me up is there the ones who have no idea what's "healthy" and what's not) that are gonna ask you when you eat a small cookie or something if you should have that on your diet. And I'm like 1) I am not on a diet. and 2) I did not know that you were my personal trainer and dietician. And why weren't you at the gym with me yesterday or the grocery store? It's really annoying, and it's just like ughhhh. It's not something I wanna deal with, so honestly - I don't. And maybe that's a bad thing. Or maybe it's good. Or maybe it really doesn't matter. Only time will tell.

Okay so back to the most important thing about this post, before I bore you to clicking "next blog". The dress. One of my friends had already bought hers, and the other hadn't. And it was just a general conversation, but they asked when I was gonna get mine. And since, well no one knows about my weight loss adventure, I just uttered a "I don't know" and kinda left it at that. My issue is that I can't just go out tomorrow and get a dress and drop a size, or two, or three. But I mean, I can't wait till the last minute. So now I'm trying to plan exactly when I'll be okay with getting a dress. That should be fun to add to the mountainious to-do list I already have (side note: is mountainious a word?). Anyway, that's my big development for the night. I felt it appropriate, considering that that's the "official" mission of this blog.

But I'm not even sure about that :) Goodnight reader!