Day 23 (Not a repeat, I swear) - The dress.

Okay, so normally I only post once a day, but if you've been keeping tabs on my blog, you'll notice it's pretty sporadic. Some days I post every single day, and then I'll skip like 3. It just depends on the time that I have. But never have I posted two posts in one day....until now. (BUM BUM BUM!)

Lol, but on a serious note, I felt the need to share a little anecdote with you from my girl's night out tonight. Today I did my exercising, and was very very good at breakfast and lunch so I could splurge just a super tiny bit at dinner with two of my good friends. So we went, and I got all dressed up, like super glamorous (and may I say, I really looked good). Well anyhoo, on the way home, we were talking about prom, beach houses, dates, yada yada yada, and then BAM. The question is proposed: Do you have your dress?

So I'm kinda like...ugh. Because really and truthfully, no one really knows about my lifestyle change. Like my mom does, and one of my best friends who I walk with does. That's pretty much it. And I know that seems crazy and I should be screaming to the people that I love the most that I'm losing weight, but I don't want to put myself in that boat. Oh sure, people have asked, but I just kinda mumble or change the subject or say no politely. I just don't want to. And this is probably why: When you're a young, overweight high school girl, and you tell people you're exercising and wanting to lose weight - they watch you. And there's always gonna be the people (and what cracks me up is there the ones who have no idea what's "healthy" and what's not) that are gonna ask you when you eat a small cookie or something if you should have that on your diet. And I'm like 1) I am not on a diet. and 2) I did not know that you were my personal trainer and dietician. And why weren't you at the gym with me yesterday or the grocery store? It's really annoying, and it's just like ughhhh. It's not something I wanna deal with, so honestly - I don't. And maybe that's a bad thing. Or maybe it's good. Or maybe it really doesn't matter. Only time will tell.

Okay so back to the most important thing about this post, before I bore you to clicking "next blog". The dress. One of my friends had already bought hers, and the other hadn't. And it was just a general conversation, but they asked when I was gonna get mine. And since, well no one knows about my weight loss adventure, I just uttered a "I don't know" and kinda left it at that. My issue is that I can't just go out tomorrow and get a dress and drop a size, or two, or three. But I mean, I can't wait till the last minute. So now I'm trying to plan exactly when I'll be okay with getting a dress. That should be fun to add to the mountainious to-do list I already have (side note: is mountainious a word?). Anyway, that's my big development for the night. I felt it appropriate, considering that that's the "official" mission of this blog.

But I'm not even sure about that :) Goodnight reader!

Day 23 - bad night, good morning

Last night was probably one of the worst I've had in a while. I couldn't sleep, was dealing with personal struggles, and not feeling well. After milling around on my laptop in bed at about 11, I got up and went downstairs in bed with my mom. I cried like a baby. I just had such a horrible night and I just wanted to sleep so bad, so it could be over. I kept thinking "God just bring me the morning light.", but I was still there in the dark night. But what's that thing they always say? Oh yeah:

"Weeping may endure for a night,
but Joy Comes in The Morning."

Psalm 30:5

And yes, it did. I finally went to bed around 2 a.m. and arose promptly at 8 for my 8:15 walk with one of my best friends. And even though I was sore, tired, and feeling weak, the walk was AMAZING! I wore my new collegiate beanie, and got all gussied up in cold weather gear for the cold Texas morning. It was awesome! And we walked 1.5 miles this morning! Yessss!


Thinking about my personal struggles, I'm sure many of you have some as well. I'd just like to remind you to keep peace and faith. Remember that struggles only last a little while, and always make you stronger.

I hope you have a terrific tuesday (:

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Day 22 - Weigh In Post-Christmas

So as you know, Monday is my weigh in day, and I think I'm pretty satisfied with the results. Today I was 198.4, +.2 lbs from last week, but that's okay in my book, considering how bad I did last week. I'm feeling better about this week though, because I only have to pass the New Years eve party. And I'm sure I'll do okay then, after reading some snazzy party eating tips in my mom's family circle (ha ha) Would you care to read? Here are some that I think will prove helpful (if not for me - hopefully for one of you, dear readers).

Holiday Party Swaps:
No to the Swedish meatballs, Yes to the chicken satays
No to the baguette slices and dip, Yes to the pitas and hummus
No to the shortbread cookies, Yes to the meringues
No to the pecan pie, Yes to the pumpkin pie

Okay so that's not a fantastic list, because in all honesty I only eat meringues and pumpkin pie, but even with the pie that's only at Thanksgiving. But I am working on a fool proof holiday tip list to keep in my head and keep my waist down. Here's my version:

- Drink water, not soda.
- Be very careful with chips. It's not always the dip, but a lot of chips add up. One serving = 7 chips.
- It's probably best to say no to most deserts, as you have very little idea of how much butter and sugar was put in, unless you made it. Then make a decision from there :)
- Have more fun enjoying the people around me, rather than eating. You aren't promised tomorrow.

Okay so those are my lists. And I promise to utilize them to the best of my abilities to make sure that I get to change my roadsign next week :)

Have a great Monday!

Day 19 - Happy birthday Jesus!

Merry Christmas everyone! I hope you all are having a great one (:

I'm blogging on my phone currently (I knew there had to be an app!) so forgive me if my format's different or anything. Lol. I can honestly say that I really did try with my food the past two days, but hey "it's Christmas!". Ha, I know I'm probably gonna roll my eyes when I look at the scale on Monday and that statement is echoing in my head, but for now, I think it's okay. I'll be up and workin out early tomorrow (:

Let me know how your Christmas feasting went! Merry Christmas everyone (:


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Day 16 - Pitstop

So yesterday was weigh in day, and I have been putting the blog off because I'm not really satisified with the results. When I got on the scale, I didn't see a smaller number than last week. It was the same number 198.2. I actually gained .2 lbs.

Okay, so it could have been worse. Considering how I did on vacation (little exercise, bad meal choices), I should be very happy that I'm not in the 200's again. But I'm still kinda ehh on the situation. I would have been happier if I would have lost, but I didn't. I'm just at a pitstop on my journey. I'll get back on the road eventually.

So with that in mind, my friend and I walked two miles yesterday in my neighborhood. It was actually invigorating, just moving on and not doting on the roadblocks. So that's what I'll keep doing this week!

When the world says, "Give up,"
Hope whispers, "Try it one more time."
-Author Unknown

Ohhh and by the way - Cowboys won (:

Day 13 - Neglect

Okay guys, I know I seem like I have fallen off the blog wagon, but I promise I haven't. I've been super busy this week, and I went out of town to my aunt's, who for some reason, does not have wifi. But I'm back home, and ready to blog again!

I have one milestone that I would like to share with you - I am down a jeans size! I have worn size 14 jeans for the past 6 years, and yesterday I went to my favorite place to buy jeans (American Eagle) and purchased a size, oh yes, 12 jeans. Wow! I haven't been able to wear a 12 sinxe 6th grade! Can you believe that?!?! Now they are snug, but they DO fit! I can wear them out, but I don't want to yet, because I wanna wait till I loose about 10-15 pounds and look a little better in them. But this is extremely thrilling!

So rather than bore you with the details of my humdrum week, I'll go ahead and tell you about my plans for tonight, and tomorrow. Tonight is the Cowboys and Saints game. Now beofre we start, I'm going to give you a very important piece of information: we are DIE HARD cowboys fans. I've been raised to love the cowboys since the day I was born. Literally, they've been the team to watch. Oh sure, I've dabbled in college football teams, and I guess that should be a little more important to me, considering I will be going to college soon. But I LOVE the boys. And I always will.
Some of you may not know a lick about football, or have been living under a rock, the saints have been undefeated this season, at 13-0. So it would be extremely BEAST if we beat them tonight. I'm not saying it will happen, but I'm not saying it won't. I'm saying it CAN happen.

Because I never thought I'd be out of the 200's again. And now I am. Things DO HAPPEN if you try :)

Day 8 - Weigh in Week One

Well I weighed in this morning, and I am very proud to announce that I lost two pounds! Yes, that's right, I am OFFICIALLY out of the 200's. Now you're probably thinking "umm hello? You were 200 pounds, you were on the line!" But before I began this blog, I weighed in at my heaviest this summer at 218 pounds. I slowly lost that weight, but the school year and other things kept me from getting down to business a little quicker. So here I am! I can honestly tell you, I do not remember the last time I was in the 190s. I'm sure it was my freshmen year. I know that I weighed about 180 lbs. in my eighth grade year, so I am SUPER proud. I would also like to inform you all that I am tightening my belts another knotch (oh and I am actually basically FORCED to wear them, as my pants are starting to fall). It's all coming full circle, and I'm just so greatful. God's really showing me that I can do this, it's not impossible. One of the things that always got me down was that you always see those people on tv, or in books, or on Oprah, or whatever, and they lose like 100 lbs. at the pivotal moments of their life, like they're about to get married and they weigh 135 lbs. at their wedding, and everything is perfect. And it's so inspring, and you're like - hey that could be me! That always was me. Watching the biggest loser, the other weight loss programs with befores and afters and it just seems so doable. But the thing that I lacked that those people had was drive. Of course I had the desire, but I didn't really want to get up and do it. And when I did, it was for a day or two or a week or three weeks or whatever and then BAM. A huge brick wall came up. I can honestly say that now, I'm smashing through those walls (: Especially the 2billclub wall!

I can honestly say that God is really the driving force behind all of this. And I know he will continue to be.
I hope you all have a super Tuesday!

Isaiah 58:9